It's volleyball season again, and I am not feeling any motivation whatsoever to coach this year, however I can't just bail out on Keith (the head coach) now. I didn't really want to do it last year but knew that it would be a good experience, and it was, but it didn't change my mind really about doing it this year. Except I was too slow to make the decision that I didn't want to do it again this year, and so he wouldn't have had enough time to find someone else....it is going to be very difficult to do practices and especially games with Harley, in fact I really don't know how I am going to do it. Especially with the late night games and things, I am never going to get to see her. I am kicking myself for not making the decision quicker. I don't know what to do now, I guess I don't really have a choice, I will just have to figure it out. Ugh I need motivation, and some sort of belief in myself that I can do this both literally and mentally. Sorry for the venting.